I'm not strong enough.


Strong Enough

You must
You must think I'm strong
To give me what I'm going through

Well, forgive me
Forgive me if I'm wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own

I know I'm not strong enough to be
everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not strong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us

Well, maybe
Maybe that's the point
To reach the point of giving up

Cause when I'm finally
Finally at rock bottom
Well, that's when I start looking up
And reaching out

I know I'm not strong enough to be
Everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not strong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

Cause I'm broken
Down to nothing
But I'm still holding on to the one thing
You are God
and you are strong
When I am weak
God I don't know why you think I'm strong enough, but I've come to realization that I'm not. Not without you. Sometimes I wanna quit or just start over, or just rewind and take an easier route in life. But I know this is what you have planned for me and so therefore this is what I want. I want the future that you have for me. Because although it is very difficult now and sometimes I don't feel You with me, I know that You are always there.

My words might not make much sense, but I have to get it out. Get it out of my brain. So Lord right now I'm asking you to be strong enough for the both of us. Because I am falling apart.

Oh and right about now I could use some good news. Or a call for a baby or something.

Comments

Tammie said…
Oh No, I wish so hard everyday that when I open your blog that the words will say BABY K is ours forever and even better news he is going to be a BIG sibling. Keep your chin up because you have so many praying for you, it just has to happen.
May 3, 2013 at 5:26 AM
Elizabeth said…
^^I was thinking the same thing as Tammie. Each time I see a new post in your feed, my heart stops for just a moment and excitement pours in. So many are praying for you, for Baby K, for the baby on its way to you. Hold tight. We are strong enough, even when we don't feel it.
May 6, 2013 at 6:58 AM
alamama said…
I totally feel for you. I understand what you are going through on some level as we are going through the adoption process too. We are in revival with Denise Wright and he preached a sermon Sun. am. about truly trusting God. So hard sometimes when we are in the middle of "it" and there seems no hope or end in sight. If God put this in motion then He will see it thru. He already has your miracle waiting. Will say an extra prayer for you today.
May 6, 2013 at 7:28 AM
Mrs. K said…
Your beautiful poem brought tears to my eyes. Your words could have been my words at times. Along with strength we need patience, in God's own time He will answer your prayers. Whenever I am suffering, whether it be emotionally or physically, I try to remember how He suffered for me. My pain is but the size of the head on a pin compared to His. His mother knows how much you want to be a mother and she is interceding for you. Love you, Grammi
May 17, 2013 at 12:32 PM
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