The day by days

Lately I have been feeling that if I do not get in the groove of just living everyday life, I am going to go crazy. This June marks 1 year since we got our first official call from Catholic Charities to show our adoption book. It quickly turned into meeting the expectant mother, totally falling in love with her personality and who she was and shortly thereafter being matched with her. She was due late July and we could hardly wait to meet the little girl Ariah Sage. 

1 week before she was born, we got a phone call that the mom could not go through with the adoption because the birth father was contesting everything.

We were completely disappointed to say the least. A few months later we were matched again, but the birth mom decided to parent when she went into labor. Both of these situations feel the same way to me: they weren't meant to be our baby. But waiting for our baby everyday can sometimes be down right insanity. Literally some days I feel like I am going to go crazy!

Add on top of that the time crunch that feels like it is closing in on us. After your home study is written and approved, you have 2 years to adopt until it expires. We have 6 months left. 6 months feels awfully short when you have been waiting 18 months with nothing.

I just wish they would call and say "your baby is here waiting for you, come pick him/her up now!" That would be nice. But that isn't the way it works. It's a series of calls, and waiting and more waiting and then disappointment and then waiting again. I hate to complain here, but honestly I know that my baby is coming soon and I might forget how I was feeling for the last 18 months! So here are some pics of us enjoying the day by days. Because it's the day to day that is going to get us to the DAY (they day we meet our precious baby we have been waiting for all our lives).

Celebrating an early Mother's Day in Portland

First real haircut at a salon (He was constantly being mistaken for a girl!)

The result of the haircut!

Waiting for Lily's baby sibling to be born at the hospital.

Baby Hayden Patrick born Mothers Day!

My Mother's Day roses from Jason

Dessert with my sister at Big River. So delicious!

My happy little guy that I am enjoying SOOO much during the process of this all. Please pray for his upcoming court date this June 14th. We need a miracle.