Exceedingly, Abundantly: not settling

6 months ago I wrote a post called Believe Only. Reading it now I can remember the pain and the emotion that went into that post as if it were yesterday, but I easily forget. It was a very good post in my opinion and you should read it. I can say confidently that it was a very good post because most of the things that I wrote in it were not my words. They were my pastors and another pastors words that I had rewritten after listening to their sermons. In summary I talked about how I needed to really believe what I say I believe, not just use it as a catch phrase and then worry like crazy.

Last night I needed a reminder of that post; those words in the sermons. It's so easy to look back now and see that Baby K is going to be ours forever and to thank God in passing, but less and less each day. It's almost as if you begin taking it for granted what God has done. You forget just how massive that miracle was. Then, in turn, you forget what God can do in the future.

I tend to humanize God. Bring Him down to my level, put him on my personal day to day schedule. Try to put Him in my timing. I think that He's forgotten me when really He knows everything. Last night was another one of those wonderful sermons where from the very beginning your hair on your arms starts prickling, your heart beats a little faster, and you feel the tears welling up as God is speaking to you loud and clear through your pastors words. The sermon was on prayer and believing what you are praying. Pastor emphasized that believing what you pray, contending, and asking for things specifically could be the key to the break through that you've been waiting for. God just may be waiting for my heart felt prayer to unlock blessing for me. More specifically the blessing of a baby. Pastor also said that when you know God is listening to your prayers, it can change your whole outlook on prayer. Simple? Yes. Exactly what I needed to hear? Exactly yes.

When I first found out that I wouldn't be able to conceive, I had some pretty specific prayer requests for God, but one that has stayed with me until now was this: I wanted a newborn baby. If possible I wanted to bring him or her home from the hospital. I was incredibly blessed to have this happen with Baby K and I want it again. I want the baby to know me from the beginning. I want to experience all of the firsts and know about every moment of my child from the start. I don't know if God has other plans, but I do know this: In Psalms 37:4 it says, "Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." The Bible also say that He is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all that we ask or think. I am trusting in God today for this. I am not settling for less than what God has. He knows my future and is directing my paths. I do not have to be fearful or anxious about my future. God knows my heart and He is hearing my heartfelt prayer.

Soon my second little addition to our home will be here and it will be far above what I could think or imagine.